I feel this too often lately. Tomorrow will be better.
This message could not be more true. There are those certain people in our lives that know how to get under our skin. Some do it purposely, just because they want to get a reaction. I’ve worked really hard on not reacting to these type people. It is extremely difficult at times. My ex-husband is one of these people. We divorced eight years ago. It was my decision to divorce because he was controlling among other things. I was not going to raise our son in that environment. He still tries to control me. He still does and says things to me to try to manipulate me and upset me. If I did not have a child with him I obviously would not communicate with him. He is a roadblock in my life now.
“Never let someone or something with the significance of a speed bump become a roadblock in your life.”
I agree with this quote, but unfortunately it is not that simple for me. I do my best to not react to my ex, but some of his actions and words recently are affecting my life and even worse are affecting our sons life. I will get through this roadblock at some point. I’ve always wondered how people such as my ex can sleep at night. It’s as if he has no conscience. He has always been able to justify his wrongdoings (in his head) and never feel guilty for the pain or hurt he causes others. I honestly feel like he will be this way until the day I die. Why? It’s been eight years! I guess because he was not able to control me and stop me from divorcing him. It is insane that after this many years he won’t move on and let it go.
Why are so many people in this world so determined to bring others down? I know there are many answers to that question.
I guess the way I see it is that each one of us experience tragedies in our lives. We have all had to get through really bad times. I have been through things that I am still angry about and still hold a lot of hurt from. I don’t treat others badly because of it though. My conscience will not allow me to. I am thankful for my conscience. It’s definitely better than the alternative.